On saturday i went to the District Choir Aufitions. I had thought i messed up big and was forever mad at myself. Untill that night when the call came that i made it with 189 out of 200. I was the second highest score for sopranos. First was my friend with 190. But yes, He was there aswell and spoke a few words that really werent starting a conversation. I was like, 'ok maybe monday' so it came. He raimed silent and distant from me. Now it seems i can not bare the pain that lies within. I know he knows now. But i want to know....its his turn. It took alot of courage to hand him my note least he could do is hand me one.....but no......what lies for me today in the wonderfully dreaded season of fall.